So in my last (and only) post, I said that I would do an introduction to who I am. That is kind of hard for me to do now that I am sitting down and trying to type this all out, I am realizing how hard it is to actually talk about yourself.
So, I am many different things, but here are the things that are coming to mind…
mama- I became a mom to the most precious blue-eyed boy, in July of 2019. He is the one thing that keeps me going on my hard days. I know that is one of the most cliche things that a person can say, but after everything that I have been through, he really is my reason for doing the things I do. As you learn more of my journey, you will get a better understanding of this.
teacher- I currently am a second grade bilingual teacher, but I have been a first grade bilingual teacher and a high School Spanish teacher. I have taught in 4 different schools in the 5 years that I have officially been teaching. The class I currently have now, I have had the opportunity of looping with into second grade. I am so fortunate to have the students that I do. I know that I make a difference in the lives of these kids, and most of the time it does not have anything to do with the material that is being taught, but everything to do with the relationships that I am able to form with my kids. Once they step foot into my classroom, they always hold a special place in my heart.
student- I will always be a lifelong student. I love learning, and if I could somehow make a career out of it, I think I would (as long as it doesn’t involve me having to write papers – ironic isn’t it). I am currently working on different education licenses than what I graduated with originally, the first time around. This last semester I took 21 (yes you read the right) credits on top of working and having a newborn son at home. This semester, I am down to only 15. But I truly do enjoy learning about education, Spanish, culture, and everything that has nothing to do with my career. I am thirsty for knowledge, and sometimes that can get me into trouble
daughter- I am the oldest child of my parents, who are divorced (since the summer going into my freshman year of high school). My dad remarried when I was in high school… I couldn’t tell you when exactly, mostly because I wasn’t invited (but neither was anyone else in my family). I am very close with my mother, sometimes too close. I am not as close with my father, we have a history, and it is not the prettiest, but it is better than it ever has been, even as a kid.
sister- I am the oldest out three kids. I have a younger sister who is 2 1/2 years younger than me, and a brother who is 5 1/2 years younger than me. I am not as close with either of my siblings as I would like, but that is not because there is bad blood or tension, it is just because life gets in the way. I do talk to them about once a week, usually, but I would love if we were a lot closer, like when we were kids. I do have a step-sister who is a year older than me and has gifted me a nephew and a niece. We are not super close, but because of the situation with my father and me while I was in high school, we were not really given a fair opportunity to connect. Now that we are older, we stay in contact, but nothing that is super close. I have no bad blood with her or anything like that, it is just the way the cookie has crumbled, but we do have a good time when we are together while we are at family functions.
Friend- This is a hard one to go into. I am very much a distant friend. I love catching up with people, and if I am with them, I have no problem connecting with people; but it is very difficult to actually get me out to do something. I am good at texting and messaging people, but if you are one of the few that can get me out of the house on a regular basis, consider yourself lucky.
Coparent- this is probably one of the hardest roles that I have ever had to play. When I was 5 months pregnant (a little less than 10 years of being together – a little less than 1 year married) my ex decided that he wanted to fall in love with another girl. He has been with her since, and they are actually expecting a baby 4 days after the birth of our baby’s first birthday. This is a hard role, because I had been with this man since our sophomore year of high school. We had been though everything together – high school, college, jobs, traveling, marriage, deaths, ups, and downs. We had known each other since we were in 5th grade, and were friends, and then eventually together. He was my best friend. We grew up together. We even got ‘[forever]’ tattooed on our wrists in each others’ hand writing. His family was mine, and mine was his. I still am in very good contact with his family, and they will forever be my family. So you can imagine the shock and hurt that I felt when he came home and told me the news that he was falling in love with another girl – while I was carrying his child, a month away from our 1st wedding anniversary. But, I knew what it was like to have your parents hate each other growing up, so I made sure I did everything but hate him, for our son’s sake. Don’t get me wrong, I was angry, and I still have my days with him, but I make it work for our baby. It is also hard to turn 10+ years of friendship off. Maybe time will do that to us, but we will always have some kind of relationship, because of our son.. so mine as well try and make the best of it.
Witch- Now this one is a little hard to explain to an average person. I have gone through some things in my life recently, that have allowed me to identify with this. No, it does not mean that I do spells and worship the devil. But it does mean that I am mostly in tune with myself, with nature, and with those around me. One of my best friends likes to refer to me as ‘Raven’ (the Disney Channel psychic) and others have also picked up on similar vibes from me. Think what you will, there is no hiding this side of me, but there is nothing saying you have to believe the things I say either. This side of me is something that is relatively new. I have been exposed to this lifestyle since late spring of last year, but really came into my own in November of last year. This lifestyle has taught me how to read tarot cards, have some trippy and interesting dreams, become more aware of animal totems, receive energies from crystals and stones, and just learn about different cultures. I like to study zodiacs, the stars and astrology, but I also don’t think that the moon is an excuse to be a jerk. I also believe in working with different energies, but don’t think that will cure the chicken pox (make sure you’re vaccinated). This is something that is all kind of new to me, but I love exploring and learning about what works and doesn’t work for different people.